Hearing But Not Listening.

Let your heart guide you. It whispers, so listen closely.
-The Land Before Time

Reader warning:  I'm in a bit of a mood.  Yikes!  Actually my mood is somewhat representative of that picture.  'Realized I've been fooling myself, note the look of shock, and this is my way of working through it.  So, instead of a pic and short blurb, i'm going to torture you with my "opinions" on matters of the heart and how maybe, just maybe, I haven't been 100% true to mine recently.  Which is funny because in my head all I keep hearing is Rod Tidwell saying, "I'm all heart mother fucker!" (It's my blog. I'll say what I want.)  But I guess that's the point.  We THINK we're being true to our hearts when in reality we're attempting to force something that's not right for us because of one reason or another.  So yes, I believe that I am all heart, but that doesn't necessarily mean I've been following it.  Rant #1. Check.  And as Ross would say, "I believe the word you're looking for is, anyway...."

It's interesting to me how much the heart knows when it comes to emotions.  It constantly gives us clues in the form of "feelings" about things like, well, like relationships for instance.  Before we are even aware of a certain situation we are in, our heart has already formed its opinion.  Seriously.  It sounds weird, but it's true. Think back to any "emotional" decision you've had to make recently.  Doesn't even have to be about a relationship.  The result didn't just come out of nowhere.  If you're honest with yourself you will discover that you knew all along.  You had a feeling.  A "gut" feeling.  Ever heard of it?  Yep, thought so.

When it comes to that "gut" feeling the heart can be brutally honest.  And no, it's never wrong.  Yet, we constantly find ourselves blocking it out.  Putting up that wall.  Hearing what it has to say but not listening to what it's actually saying.  Guilty.  Guilty.  And more guilty!  Why?!  Why do we do this?  Not completely sure but I think it might have something to do with being so eager to control our own lives.  But, we all know, it doesn't work that way.

So then what?  What happens next?  Honestly, I don't know.  Every situation is different.  All I can say is: just be honest with yourself and listen.  Listen to what your heart is saying because it won't lead you down the wrong path.  I know - easier said than done, right?!  This is one of my biggest struggles.  Trusting.  Trusting that plan and putting my heart on the line.  But, isn't that part of it?  Isn't that what they say makes us figure out who we are and what it is that we really want?  Deep down I know it is.  It's just a matter of trusting it.

Because come on! Seriously, if Littlefoot, Cera (whom I will refer to as Sarah because 1. that's how it's pronounced and 2. she's awesome!), Petrie, Ducky, and Spike (yes, I remembered their names. ALL of their names.) can make it across that hellish terrain and into the Great Valley by listening to their hearts, then we sure as hell can make it through this "hellish terrain" and reach our own "Great Valley".  Which is different for everyone.  So start listening and find it.  Whatever it might be.  BUT remember, you have to listen closely because the heart whispers!!

Ok.  I'm finished.  Next one will be more about the pictures and less about me.  Promise.